[Jiyong’s POV]
‘I hate you’
Those words keep on rewinding inside my head… it’s the second time I heard those words from her… she hate me that much to run away with some other guy…? She’s just like everyone else… always leaving me like a piece of trash… always keeping my hopes up then crashing it in the end… damn…! Here I am again being a pussy emo..!
But those tears… what were those…? Making me feel guilty wherein the first place she did it first…! I tried to treat her nicely but she always pushes me away…! Defending everyone but never listens to me..! Then now she’s acting as if she’s the victim..?! Pffft…! Who does she think she is…?! She’s just Sandara Park… nothing to Kwon Jiyong… yes… she’s just nothing to me….
But then… why am I this agitated to follow her…? What if she got dragged by some psycho again…?! Damnit…! No Jiyong… just stay here… let her come back and ask for help… but sh!t I think it’s already been an hour since she left…! What if someone’s raping her by now…?!!?
“Baby… are you okay…? Why are you sweating so much…? Too hot eh…?”
The b!tch beside me suddenly interrupted my thoughts… I forgot about these sluts… and just then I could feel Sohee touching my member over my pants… tsssk… disgusting slut…!
“Go away…”
I told them coldly… I don’t have any plans to play around with these disgusting b!tches… I don’t know but I could feel my stomach turning upside down whenever their bodies touch mine… and earlier… I almost throw up when Sohee’s mouth crashed with mine… but then seeing Dara’s reaction made it all worth it… that disgusted look on her face somehow made me managed to swallow those disgusting moves.
“But Jiyongie baby… I thought you missed me… I’ll clean those stains for you… and I could make you feel better tonight…”
Sohee then started to unbutton my clothes while the other girls started to unbuckle my belt… I closed my eyes tight to suppress my forming anger… my jaws clenched thinking that I should do this… yes… they are right this is what I need to empty my mind with all the stress from that girl…
But then in the end… I failed… her face… that crying face keeps on flashing on me…! And this f*cking guilt that I never imagined I have is slowly forming inside me…!
I then hold Sohee’s hand before it could reach the last button… I opened my eyes and glared at her… She just looked at me innocently… wondering what’s wrong… I don’t even know what’s wrong or right to do this time… that stupid Sandara Park is bothering the hell out of me…
I pushed the girls away and stood up.
“Ouch..! Jiyongie…! What are you doing baby..?!!”
Damnit…! How many times this b!tch have called me baby..?! It’s freaking every organ inside my body…! I turned to her while I buttoned my shirt and buckled my belt back.
“Call me by that name again or I’ll shove every bottle in this room to that loose pussy of yours…”
I held one bottle of alcohol and smirked then I saw the horror on her face… they all stood up and quickly left the room… and just then I remembered her… tsssk..! She’s so troublesome…! And why the hell am I bothering myself to be worried about her…?!! What do I care if she got raped…?! If I know she’ll be mad at me once again for interrupting her… but… haisst..! No one’s allowed to touch her…! Well except for me…!!
I then run outside the room… even though it’s already been an hour since she left… I hope nothing bad happened to her… I’m really going to cut any man’s d!ck if they dared to touch her…!
“Jiyong-ah… where are you going…?”
I came to a stop when I heard someone called me… I was too occupied with my worries and thoughts… I turned around and saw Youngbae looking at me wonderingly… I just realized that I am now standing at the place’s entrance.
“Huh…? Ahm… I’m looking for someone…”
I told him still looking left and right onto the street…
“Who…?”
He then asked me…
“Have you seen Dara on your way here..?”
I asked him fretfully… I bit my lip thinking and imagining what’s happening to her right now… I should have followed her once she left that f*cking room…!
“No… why…? You lost her here…?!”
He yelled… tsssk… I don’t have any time being scolded at…! Where is she…?!
“Help me find her…!”
I ran towards my car without listening to him and Youngbae had no choice but to follow me… I immediately turned the engine and drove off not really knowing where to find her… I gripped on the steering wheel while looking everywhere as I drove my car…
Oh please…. Make her safe… she maybe a flirt and she may betrayed me but… f*ck…! I’m going to kill her myself if she’s in danger…!
“Yah… yah Jiyong…! Are you even listening to me…?”
Youngbae once again snapped be back from my thoughts… I turned to him in anger for this is really not a right time to be hearing his preach.
“What…?!”
“I said let’s check first her house… just to be sure… then when she’s not there… it’s the right time to panic and look for her around… I don’t know what you did this time Ji but please gather yourself back and stay cool okay… I just hope nothing bad happened to her…”
How can I stay cool if I don’t know where the hell she is…?!! This is my fault…! No..! Did I just think of that…?! It’s her fault…! I’m just being a jerk because of her…!
But… for tonight… at least until I could find her and be sure she’s safe… I’ll take every blame… just let her be safe.
I turned my car back towards her house and just then we saw a familiar figure walking slowly towards their house… I stopped the car at a corner and watched her… her shoulder were slumped down as she wiped off something on her face… it took her one and a half hour just to reach back her house…?!?
“Ji..! That’s Dara right…?!”
Youngbae then called and was about to go out the car but I stopped him… he turned to me and asked me why.
“Just… let her… I just want to know that she got home safe…”
I said weakly as I watched her figure stopping at their entrance… wiping off something again on her face and slowly went inside their house…
I sighed… did she cry that one whole hour…? She’s really stupid… what if someone took advantage of her on her way home…? She cried all the way back at here… is it all because of what happened earlier…? But why would she cry…? She doesn’t even care about what I do…
“Ji… are you okay…?”
Youngbae asked me I turned to him and gave him back a slight nod… I was about to turn the engine on but he stopped me.
“I don’t think we should go back to the bar… the other boys wouldn’t be able to join us tonight after all… Seunghyun is kinda busy with some chick… while the others were both in detention… I’m not also in the mood to drink… what happened…? And why are you stained in alcohol…?”
He asked me… I slumped back on my seat and in the end told him what I did… I just felt like I have to release everything on someone… it’s too much to bear it inside me… I just continuously watched their house as I told Youngbae everything… and after I did… I sighed deeply.
“You’re a jerk…”
He said… I just kept quiet… too drained to talk more… I expected that… but just too blind to admit.
“You don’t even know what really happened between Jaejoong and Dara… and yet you did those things to her… you even compared her to those sluts… and just now we saw her crying her way to her house… were you happy with what you did…?”
He then asked me… I didn’t reply… I don’t even know what I am feeling right now… but definitely I don’t feel any happiness or contentment after what I have done…
“Do you love her…?”
And by his question I was taken aback… huh…?! Love…? What is he talking about…?
“What are you talking about…? How did this end with that…? And plus you know me… I don’t fall in love…”
I shrugged.
“Yeah right… but what I’m seeing right now tells me the exact opposite Jiyong-ah… I think you’re a one puppy love sick over Dara…”
He chuckled… I turned to him and gave him a glare… me..? In love with Dara…? What the f*ck…! I’m just acting this way towards her because she’s my possession now… she’s my personal maid… and by personal it means she’s mine… and not to be shared with anyone… what the..! How did this all end with that L word…?!!
“I don’t love her…”
I told him and heard him sigh
“You’re such a kid… you know what… I don’t really have any time explaining things to you… I don’t even have any plans mingling myself into your business but Ji… if you’ll keep on doing those things to her… you’ll definitely lose her… set your feelings now…before someone by the name of Jaejoong completely take her away from you… you don’t want that, do you…? I just don’t want to see you crying like a pussy in the end and with full of regrets…”
And by what he said I was completely dumbfounded… what does he mean by setting my feelings…? And what do I do to her…?! Aissht… I knew it… talking to this guy would really make everything worse… always reading everything on different angle… love…? Pfft… and as if I would let Jaejoong take her away…
“Yeah… yeah mom… I get it…”
I answered him back rolling my eyes which earned a smirk from him…
“Don’t come to me as if I never warned you…”
He smirked once again… after a while we decided to head back to the bar to get his car… I took one last glance on her house before we drove off…
‘I can’t be in love with you Dara… can I…?’ I thought
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[Dara’s POV]
Noona… Mom has a seminar to attend to she said she’ll be out of town for five days… Durami noona has her school trip and me I have my training starting today… we would be all back by next week.... Take care of yourself noona… I prepared something before I left… just check it on the fridge…
PS: Please eat real foods while we’re not home… I brought with me all your ramens
Waaaaaah..! They all left me here alone…?!!! I didn’t even got to see them before they left…! And again it’s all because of that jerk…! He’s really getting on my nerves by now…!! Calm down Dara… you don’t want to have wrinkles at such a young age do you..? And it’s not as if they won’t be back…
But I miss them already…!! I haven’t spend much time with them these past few days… my life is too busy with work, studies and that jerk added up to my problems…! What have I done wrong…?!!
I checked what’s in the fridge and saw some bibimbap prepared and with some other foods that are maybe good for the whole days they are away…. Awwww… my baby brother made this all for me…? Such a cutie not like that jerk…! Aisssht..!
I then took a shower and after that stared myself at the mirror… and woah…! My eyes looked like been beaten up… so puffy and red… it’s all this jerk’s fault…! And why do I have to think of him every after thought I made..! It’s because he’s a jerk..!! Waaaah..! I am completely going out of my mind…!!
I wore my pajamas and headed downstairs… I don’t want to sleep yet… especially that I am home alone… oooh… too scary… I brought my phone with me… good thing I have it in my pocket and didn’t leave it inside my bag.
I turned the TV on and lay down on the sofa… having home alone is not that bad after all… I could be emo and crazy without y family worrying about me… I checked my phone and kyaaaa…! I have tons of messages…! And especially from Jaejoong… hayyy…
That other guy… I don’t know if I should be happy meeting the mysterious guy who happened to be him… now that everything is going crazy for me… and he’s a one of the reason for that… I don’t know if it’s a good thing meeting him again…
I just really wanted to have a good and peaceful life… but now… everything is totally opposite…! I guess you could never get everything that you wanted… but then… is it too hard to give me some peaceful life…?!!
From: Jae
Dara… are u alright..?
Pls answer me..?
Did Ji done something to u..?
I sighed..
From: Jae
Ur phone is off..
Pls answer my mssge once u read it
I just want to know if ur safe
He’s really a nice man… but then…. If I keep on mingling myself to him it would mean more trouble for me… I sighed once again… I saw more of messages from him but decided to just erase them all without reading it…
Should I reply on him…? But he’s really worried by now… aisssht… these boys… so bothersome…
Dara:
Hi Jae
Sorry about what happened earlier
Yes I safe I’m here at my house now
Off to sleep… see u at skul tom
Goodnyt..!
I waited for a while but then I didn’t got any reply… maybe he’s already asleep… I checked on the other messages while watching the TV
From: Bom
Kyaaaa..!
Dara-ah…!
Guess what..?
He invited me for a ride on his motorcycle..!
OMG..!
He’s so cool…!
I chuckled… at least she’s happy…
From: CL
Dara..!
I got ur bag…!
U have some explaining to do..!
I sighed… good thing she got it for me..! Gosh…! What should I do…?! I can’t just lie to her… best is to just tell her everything tomorrow… that jerk really is giving me too much trouble…! Aisssht…!
While reading my other messages I heard the doorbell rang…. Huh…? What time is it…? Who could that be…? It’s already late…! Woah…! What if it’s a burglar..?!! Ghaaad…!
But then… Dara are you out of your mind…?! A burglar wouldn’t even bother to rang the doorbell… Then the doorbell rang again…
“Coming..!”
Who could that be…?
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