CHAPTER 24

[Dara’s POV]



“Oh CL…”





“Yah Dara-ah… I just came here to bring your bag… aissht… you really made me worried you know…”





CL said irritatingly while her face turned to the side and pouting… reaching her arm to me giving me my bag… I smiled as I got my bag and pulled her into a tight hug… what I need now is someone I could release all of my stress to.





“I’m sorry to make you worry CL-roo… but thanks….”





She then hugged me tight while patting my back… we released each other after a while but still she’s pouting to me… I chuckled before pinching her cheeks… she’s really cute whenever she’s playing mad… and just then she finally smiled.





“You have so many explaining to do…”





She said raising a brow to me….





“Yes… I know…”





I bowed my head as memories of what happened earlier with that jerk began to replay inside my head… aissht… I thought I would at least have a break from him… but that jerk’s sickeningly face keeps on popping out…!





“Tomorrow… tell me everything arasso…?”





She held my chin and lifted my face… I nodded and then she hugged me again.





“Dara-ah… you know we’re always here for you right… so don’t hesitate to share your problems with us…”





Aw… CL… I didn’t know she could be this sweet… she squeezed me one last time before we released each other.





“Aigoo… I have to go now… I just sneaked out from our house… my mom will kill me if she knows I’m not home… he-he…. See you tomorrow Dara… and don’t forget what I said arasso…”






She tapped my shoulder and I gave her back a smile…





After a while… I’m now studying for our lessons since I missed two days at school… aigoo… I need to get back on track…. My scholarship is too precious to lose…. Ghaaad…! Please give me more strength…!





I’m in the middle of studying and drowsing off when suddenly the doorbell rang again… huh…? Did CL forget something…? I drowsily went to the door and opened it…






“Did you forget...-“






My sentence got cut out…. My eyes widen as I saw who’s on the other side of the door…. What is he doing here…? I’m too tired to deal more of my problems… can’t this wait until tomorrow…?






“J- Jae… what are you doing here…?”






He weakly smiled at me…






“Dara-ah… I was really worried about you… I was waiting for your reply until I fell asleep… and when I woke up and saw your message, I just found myself driving my car heading here…”






And just then I noticed his clothes… I looked at him from head to toe… his hair is still disarrayed and his only wearing some sweatpants and a black sweater… he’s even just wearing slippers…! aigoo… good thing he’s not wearing just a boxers or something for I will totally have my nose bleed… why is it that even he’s wearing some simple clothes, he still look so hot in it…? waaaaah…!!! Dara…! What are you thinking about…?!!?






“Ah…. He-he… sorry to make you worry Jae… but really… I’m fine…”






I feel awkward… him standing in front of me now feels so different than back then…. Why is it…? Oh…! It’s because of that kiss….It shouldn’t have happened… not with him… I mean of course not to anyone… kyaaaa…!!! I’m really going out of my mind right now…!!






He cleared his throat when he noticed that I am now spacing out… I then snapped back and turned back to him…






“Uhmm… well then… I better get going now… sorry to bother your night…”





Is he… by any chance, sounded sad…? He looked down breaking our eye contact… maybe he felt the awkward atmosphere between us… I felt a little guilty… he came all the way here… worrying about me… and compared to that jerk… he’s so sweet when it comes to me… and still… I never returned back his kindness…





I sighed… and when I saw him, he’s about to reach his car… I then called him and he stopped from his track… he turned back waiting for my answer.






“Uhmmm… would you mind staying first for a cup of tea…”






He tilted his head… waaah… is he still half awake…? Didn’t he understand what I said…?






“Yes… I mean… you came all the way up here… it’s just a little thank you from me… come on…. It’s cold outside…”






I turned back and headed inside… I smiled when I heard his footsteps trailing behind me… kyaaa…! Did I make the right choice…? Aigoo…. Does it mean more trouble for me...? I’m really digging my own grave…!






But what the heck…! That jerk doesn’t have any rights to tell me who to meet…!! The nerve of making out with some random girl and then insulting me back just because of that simple kiss that I didn’t even initiated in the first place…! Huh…! This is my life…! Just because of those pictures he’s holding me captive…! What a real jerk…! Aisssht..!





I came back with our teas… Jaejoong’s seating on the couch looking around the house… his hair was still all disarrayed… I admit he looks so cute…. Didn’t he see himself from the mirror of his car…? I then heard myself chuckled which caught his attention…






He looked at me wonderingly but I just cleared my throat…. Ha-ha… I didn’t even bother telling him about his appearance…. Well since it’s just once in a lifetime seeing the cool and beautiful Kim Jaejoong having a newly awake get-up…





I set down the tray on the coffee table and set myself seated beside him… I turned on the TV to lessen the awkwardness between us… just the sound from the show could be heard… until after I think… a decade…. He finally broke our silence… wooosh… I thought I’ll die from stiffness here…





“Where’s your family…?”





He asked me while his eyes were darted on the TV… we both emptied our cups and now just watching some variety show… and it’s already eleven in the evening.






“Uhmm… they’re all be back by next week…”





I said… and just then he turned to me.





“You mean you’re just alone in here…? But why did you let me in…?”





He asked… I raised an eyebrow…





“Why…? What’s wrong with that…?”





And then it’s now his turn to raise an eyebrow to me…. What’s his problem…?





“You shouldn’t let some guys inside when you’re alone…”





He said in a serious tone… woah… he’s starting to scare me.





“But you’re not ‘some guy’ right…? Plus… I know you wouldn’t do anything illegal… but if you will just keep it to yourself okay coz I know some karate…”





I pretended to show him some karate hand movements…. He chuckled…. Oh… I missed that soothing voice… his voice is really as beautiful as him….






“What if I still will…?”






He said as he stopped from laughing… slowly scooted closer to me… my eyes widen… is he serious…? I then hugged myself as I scooted away from him but when he cornered me at the end of the couch… he leaned his body towards me while until I could feel my back pressing on the arm rest… I then started to shout.





“Kyaaaaa…!”





He quickly covered my mouth with his hand… I really made a wrong choice to let him in…!!! Waaaahhh..!! The once I thought angel is actually a devil…?!! What is he planning to do…?!!





I held his hand trying to lift it from my mouth but he pressed it securely on my mouth… waaaaaah…!!!! Until even inside my house, I’m still not safe…!!





“I’m just kidding…”





He then chuckled once again… still covering my mouth… I stiffened… I stopped from panicking totally dumbfounded…





He slowly pulled his hand from my mouth… still chuckling… how could he…! Laughing at me…! Huh..!





“You should have seen your face…”





He said between his laughs… I glared at him but he just continued… I fixed myself on my seat with a still now small gap between us… I thought he’s different from that jerk… aissht… they both really like making fun of me…!




“Then what about your new look… pretty boy…?”






I smirked…he stopped from laughing and turned to me with his wondering eyes once again… I pointed him the mirror on the wall… he then quickly went to it and checked himself… I heard him cleared his throat after he fixed his air and clothes… he shook his head as he saw his feet wearing his slippers… I can’t help not to chuckle… he turned to me and stuck his tongue out… aw… how cute…!






“Don’t call me pretty again…”





He said monotonously after he went back to his seat… oooh…. Did I piss off Mr. Beautiful…?





“What did you say pretty boy…?”





I teased him once again… I saw his brows slowly connecting… his jaws starting to clench… kyaaa…! Should I run now…? Ha-ha… as if I will… why does he still looks beautiful even if he’s getting mad..? aigoo… I’m envious…





“Call me pretty again… and I’ll have to shut that cute mouth of yours with my lips… you want that…?”





He said and that made me taken aback… I pretended to laugh… he just looked at me with his still serious look… of course I wouldn’t like to kiss him…! Again…! kyaaa…!





"Just don't let other guys enter your house when you're alone... check the window first before opening your door... it's really dangerous you know..."





He said worriedly... I just nodded... he's really sweet... how can a man be so sweet like this... then silence... until he broke it first again.






“Dara… what I said earlier at school were all true… I really do love you…”





I stopped from watching the TV… I also think that I stopped from breathing… is this another joke from him…? ghaaaad..! But not a hint of joke is painted in his face…. Why all of a sudden telling me this…?! And in the first place why does he love me…? Please take it back coz I don’t deserve it… he has so many fan girls…. Why me…?! I don’t know what to tell him back…





“J-Jae… I-…”






“You don’t have to answer me now Dara… if you’re confused I’m still willing to wait… I’ve waited for years to finally meet you… some days or weeks wouldn’t hurt… just please think about it carefully… I’ve seen your sufferings… your family’s downfall… I just want to protect you from hurting more… so please give me a chance and think about it…”






I felt his hand reached and held mine… I’m confused… right now that jerk’s face keeps on flashing inside my mind… why is he bugging me…!! Jaejoong… he is definitely a perfect guy that a girl would ask for… my ‘mystery man’… I also think he’s the first man that made my heart skipped… but why… right now that jerk Kwon Jiyong’s face is the one that I’m thinking…?





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I lay on my bed… it’s already three in the morning... Jaejoong’s words keeps on replaying inside my head… why me…? But also… why can’t I just answer him yes…? He’s been nothing but kind to me… what’s holding me back…?





Maybe because having a relationship isn’t still in my plans… I still have many things to accomplish before dealing with that thing called love… yes… that’s it… my family still needs me… plus I still have so many problems to solve… and by then… maybe Jaejoong would forget about his feelings… it’s for the better especially for him…






I checked my phone before sleeping… not a single message from ‘him’…






kyaaaa…! Dara…! Why am I expecting a message from him…?!! Too much that happened today really made my mind go nuts…






But he didn’t even apologize… for maybe… just maybe… if he bothered asking for forgiveness through text… maybe… with a tiny bit of chance… I could forgive what he had done… but none… as if that jerk would lower his pride just to apologize…





Is he really having a good time with those girls now…?






I feel like I don’t want to go to school later… I don’t want to see him… I’m afraid that I’ll break into tears again once I see him…






"If you weren't a jerk in the first place maybe I would have liked you..."





Kyaaaa...! what am i talking about...?!! I stared at my phone… and realized I’ve been watching his number for quite a while now… I could feel my eyes slowly getting heavy... until after a while more… I finally went to slumber.





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[Jiyong’s POV]



I wasn’t able to sleep fast last night… especially with those preach that Youngbae gave me... damn that man...! I tossed to my bed for couple of hours while staring at my phone which is resting at my desk… I bit my blanket… my pillow and even my bed sheet just to suppress myself from going to my phone and contact her…






Damn…! I totally thought I’ll have a nervous breakdown… I didn’t even know how I managed to fall asleep… did I bang my head somewhere…? Tsssk… that little miss perfect is really getting on me…!






And speaking of that girl… why isn’t she here yet…? The class will start soon… she’s the only one who’s missing… is she going to absent today again….? Tssssk…! Did she go back to that shop..?!! arghhh…!!!





What do I care…?!! She’s always like that after all…! Always disobeying me…! Always looking for trouble…! Well sorry for her… I don’t have time and not in the mood to help her... for I know in the end she wouldn’t appreciate any of it…! Tssssk..! I’m really just wasting my time and effort to her…





-After one minute-


F*ck…! Where is she…?!!! Is she really going to ditch the class again…?!!
I just then realized that I am now biting on my nails… suppressing yet again myself from looking for her… and ask her friend where she is…





What if she’s with Jaejoong…? Nah… I saw that b@stard this morning…






Sh!t what if she really went back to that job…? And got raped by some fugly creatures…?! No… I know she wouldn’t dare going back there…






Did something happen to her on her way here…?! I’m really going to kill her if something happened to her…!





Damn…!!! Where the hell is she…?!!





I kept my eyes glued on the door… guarding it until she comes… I fidgeted on my seat… still biting my nails… totally uncool… but I can’t help it…!






My eyes widen as I saw the door opened… my heart finally went back to its normal state… I stopped biting my nails and almost stood up… but then I stopped when I saw that it was not her… but instead our teacher…





She really is absent…?!!? How could she…!





Where is she..?






What is she doing now…?






Why is she absent…?






Did something happen…?





Is it still because of what I did yesterday…?





The teacher called her name… once… twice… and just then the door opened again and my eyes widen for the second time… finally…!






It’s her…!






But… why does she looked like that…? her eyes are both puffy… dark circles under it… she looks paler than her complexion… did she sleep late…?






“Ms. Park… you’re late…”






Our teacher said… she just bowed and apologize… she went to her seat without even looking at me… she just passed by my seat… I bit my lip…. No Jiyong… don’t look back…






“Psst… Dara… what happened…?”






I heard her friend called her when we’re all copying some notes written on the board… I kept my ears listening to them… leaning myself a little bit to the side.






“I overslept…”





I heard her weak voice… I knew it… she slept late… she really doesn’t know how to take care of herself…! I thought she’s intelligent…?! But why can’t she think that she’s not some kind of superwoman who could do anything to her body…






First wearing herself from work… and now sleeping so late… is she really killing herself… f*ck… did I just sounded like a father…? Damn…






The class ended… I never heard from her after what she said earlier… I glanced to the side to see her from my peripheral vision… and saw her slumped on her desk… totally sleeping… and just then I heard some of our girl classmates talking.






“They didn’t arrive together right…? And did you see her face…? Totally looked pathetic”





“Maybe Jiyong oppa finally broke up with her… just what she deserves... ha-ha and to think that they only just had one day together... maybe she sucked on bed...”





“Ooooh… I’m relieved…she deserves it... she shouldn’t have expected more… huh... as if Jiyong oppa would take her seriously… right…?”






“Right… right… she should just stick being a bookworm… such an ambitious slut…”






That made me pissed… who gave them the f*cking right to talk about her…? I turned around and instantly they all flashed me their sweetest smile… such disgusting sluts… I went to them and they all stood up… I want to puke… they all look worse when up-close.






“Do you like me…?”






I asked one of them… cupping the creature’s chin… she quickly replied yes… I smirked… of course… who wouldn’t like me…






“Do you think I would like you back…?”






She didn’t answer… I smirked once again.






“I would never like you… I would never like anyone not by the name of Sandara Park… do you know why…?”





She still didn’t answer back… the people inside the room were all watching me… well except for her who’s still busy in her dreamland.






“Coz… you’re all ugly… brainless b!tches who don’t know anything aside from spreading your legs to any guys in sight… all of your kinds are the total opposite of my girl… arasso… keep that in your empty minds… she’s my girl… Sandara Park… and never… would you compare your slutty selves to her… because even an inch of her nail.... or a strand of her hair is better than all of you bunch of b!tches… try to mess up with her… you’ll all wake up one morning with your pussy’s all stitched up with each other…”





I smirked… they all stiffened and collapsed on their seats… I think it was the longest statement I have made in this stupid class… I went to Dara… and caressed her hair… I sighed… how this girl can be a great bad influence to me…





“Make sure she eats later at lunch… I won’t be around…”






I said to her friend CL… she nodded while smiling at me… I glanced back down at her… and sighed once again… why am I doing these things for her…?! F*cking game…! I’m supposed to play this one not the other way around..!






I left the room giving the nerd one last smirk…







“Sorry geek… but she’s mine…”






I need to talk to that b@stard…hate me all she wants… but she’s mine… well at least until my game ends… maybe… if I’m still playing this game… coz I think I think it’s now becoming pointless… I’m all f*cked up…! Great… just all because of you Dara…