“Dara…! Where did you go…?” mom quickly approached me once I entered our house.
“Mo-... mom… I’m sorry… my friend suddenly needed my help again.” I lied once again… I was tugging on the big shirt I am wearing hoping that my mom would believe me.
“Who’s this friend of yours…? Is ‘she’ alright…? ‘She’ seems like having so many problems…” mom said as she walked back in the living room… I sighed in relief when she didn’t notice what I’m wearing.
“You don’t know ‘her’ mom… and don’t worry we already solved ‘her’ problem…” I said as I walked towards the kitchen to drink some water.
“Have you already eaten…?” I heard her asking… I remembered all those foods I ate earlier… that was like the great dinner I had… I should have packed some for my family… :(
“Yes mom… I’ll be up in my room now… good night…” I said as I kissed her cheek and went upstairs before she completely noticed the big shirt I am wearing.
“Noona..! What happened to your neck and lips…!” Sanghyun suddenly yelled when I bumped into him… my eyes widened realizing what he said.
“Are you having allergies again…?” he continued.
“Ye-yes…. I ate something earlier…. It’s so itchy…” I said while pretending to scratch my neck.
“Does mom knows…? It may grow worse noona…” he said worriedly… aigoo… he’s so cute… I reached for his head ruffling his hair… he’s getting taller than me as day passed… hmmm…
“Aigoo… don’t worry... I have some medicines at my room… by the way, where’s Durami…? Has she gone home already…?”
“Yes… she’s in her room… you better rest now noona…” he said before entering his room.
“Okay… good night Sanghyunie..”
I immediately went to the bathroom… my lips are completely swollen… I touched it and remembered everything that caused it to be that way… my neck’s full of marks… I sighed… how many days will these marks take for it to disappear…?
‘Please don’t leave me…’
‘I’m jealous…’
‘Do you still hate me…’
Those words are starting to fill my mind… what is really going on in his mind…? The way he said those words were with mixed sadness… I can feel it… but why does he keeps on holding back…? He would always find ways to keep that sadness and always ends to hurt me… and then after a while, he’ll come back to soothe that pain…
‘Jiyong… who’s the real you…?’
I stripped off from his shirt to take a shower… I still have his handkerchief… and now his shirt… omo… I have to give all of his things back to him…
I almost lost my virginity to him…! That’s the only thing I have left for my future husband… he already stole my first kiss… and I would make sure that he won’t be able to steal my virginity… that ‘opportunist’…. He really scares me… he’s so strong and aggressive… I wish I could get to see his soft side… he’s just so random.
After I took a shower, I went to my room and tried to find my phone but didn’t find it there… then I remembered leaving it at the living room… as I went downstairs, I heard mom talking with someone over the phone.
“Please… I just need more time… I’m already trying my best to earn more… I’m not going to run from you… please… just more time…” I heard her pleading… I know it already… it’s those debt collectors again…
I waited for mom to finish her conversation first before I went down… I saw her sitting on the sofa burying her forehead on her hand… she quickly looked up and smiled at me when she noticed me approaching her.
“Mom… is everything alright…? “ I asked her even though I know it’s not.
“Yes dear… why are you still up…?” Just what I thought… she doesn’t want me to worry about our problem.
“I just went downstairs to get my phone..” I said as I got my phone from the side table… I looked back at her and whenever I see those wrinkles on her face, I can’t help but to feel in pain… she’s still young and yet because of the continuous problems we have, she already forgot about taking care of herself…
I approached her then hugged her tight…
“Dara… are you okay dear…?” she asked… caressing my back.
“Omma… please don’t tire yourself too much…” I said as I buried my face on her neck… she always pretends to be strong even I know deep inside her, she’s tiring and suffering.
“I’m not… so don’t worry okay…” she said as she held my shoulder to face me and then kissed my forehead.
“Omma… I love you…” I said as I hugged her again… I will not take it anymore once I lose her too… dad already left us and losing mom will break my courage apart.
“I love you too Dara… now go upstairs now and sleep… don’t worry about everything…” she said as she gave me one last tight hug and then released me.
I glanced back at her before going upstairs… I realized that my family’s problem is more important than mine…
Maybe I just have to find myself another job… those day-offs that I have is such a waste of time… adding one more job wouldn’t hurt right…?
As soon as I arrived my room, I quickly checked my phone.
From: Bom
Dara…
We broke up… :(
Again…? I can’t believe her… I thought she said she thinks he’s already the ‘one’ but now they broke up..? It’s only been what…? Three weeks…? Or is it two…? Gosh… I can’t believe her…
I quickly replied to her even if I’m already late
Dara:
Sorry I only got to reply now…
Why…?
What happened now..?
I waited for her reply but I guess she’s already asleep… I checked the other messages and they’re all from a single person… they’re all from Jae…
From: Jae
Hey Dara…
I really had fun earlier…
I hope we could do it again next time…
Next time…? Is the ‘holding hands’ still part of it…? But I guess he’s just sweet… but still, him suddenly knowing my address creeps me out… I checked the other messages from him.
From: Jae
Dara…
Have you eaten dinner already…?
Well I just ate mine…
Please stay healthy…!
Awww… he’s even asking me if I already ate…
From: Jae
Dara…
I hope you’re not mad with what I did earlier.
Oh… why did he think I’m mad…?
From: Jae
Dara…
I’m sorry…
Please reply even once…
From: Jae
Maybe you’re already asleep
I hope I get to talk to you at school
Goodnight
Omo… he thought I am mad… if not because of that Jiyong… but should I reply back to Jae…? What if Jiyong… aisssht… I’m starting to be paranoid because of that guy…!
Dara:
Jae
I’m sorry I only got to reply to your messages now
I read all of them just now
Don’t worry I’m not mad at you
Goodnight to you too…!
Right after I lay down to my bed, my phone started to vibrate… I checked it and surprised to see him calling… I thought he’s already sleeping… I’m having second thoughts if I should answer his call but in the end I still answered it.
“Jae…! Why did you call…? I thought you’re already sleeping…”
“I can’t sleep thinking that you’re mad at me…”
“Well… I am not…” I said as I chuckled.
“Don’t worry I won’t do it next time if you find it uncomfortable… it’s just that you’re so beautiful that I can’t hold back myself…”
Oh my God…! Did he just call me beautiful…? Ghad… this is too much for this night… I mean for this whole day…!
“Ha-ha… you’re funny…” I said awkwardly
“I’m serious… and about what I said earlier at the mart… I really like you Dara… since the first day I met you…” his voice suddenly sounded so serious.
What does he mean he likes me…? The first day he met me…? But that was just a small incident… we didn’t even got to talk so much… then he immediately liked me…?
“Dara… don’t worry I’m not forcing you to like me too… I just want to tell you that I like you… that’s all…”
“Ahh… he-he… yes… thanks for liking me…”
What…? Thanks for liking me…? Oh my… what am I talking about…! I need to think immediately to change this awkward topic…! Then Jiyong’s face suddenly popped out inside my mind…
“Jae… can I ask you something… if it’s okay with you…”
“Yes… sure what is it…”
“Are you and Jiyong really friends…?” well I remembered him calling Jiyong ‘friend’ back then.
“Yup… we were… why did you ask…?”
“Oh…! But did something happened to the both of you…?”
“What do you mean…?”
This is getting more awkward…
“Well… uhmmm… you see… Jiyong seems like have something… I mean he seems mad at you…”
There was a long pause before I heard him sighing.
“Don’t mind him… he’s just being childish…”
Childish…? You call that childish…? I almost got raped just because Jiyong knew that I was with you and you call that childish…? Aissht... these guys…. I know there’s something going on between them… and now I’m stuck between these two…!
“Dara… are you and Jiyong have a relationship…?”
“What…? No… no… no… no… we don’t have… ha-ha…”
“Oh… okay… that’s good to know…”
What does he mean by that…? Then a long pause again…
“Dara…”
“Uhmm yes…?”
“Uhh… nothing… I have to go now… goodnight…”
Is it just me or his voice suddenly sounded sad…?
“Oh… yes… good night too…”
After a short pause, he hanged up… what’s with these guys…! Really…! They’re both so weird…
I was about to sleep when my phone vibrated again… did Jae forgot to tell me something…? I checked it and surprised that the message’s not from Jae but to the other weirdo.
From: It’s me
Are you sleeping already…?
Stop flirting around and just sleep arasso…
Good night baby…
Omo…! Did he know that I was talking with Jae over the phone…? This creep…! But at least he knows how to say ‘goodnight…’ And not just ordering me around to sleep.
‘Goodnight to you too… Jiyong…’ I whispered to my phone
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