[Jiyong’s POV]
”What do you want…?”
After I went out our classroom, I quickly went to the b@stard’s room… I didn’t even have to call for him, for the freaking girls in her class announced my appearance… and maybe he already knew that I’ll come… yes… we need to settle things once and for all…
But wait… just for the record… I’m not doing this just to justify Youngbae’s assumptions of me liking Dara… tssssk…! I just want that b@stard not to lay a hand on my playthings…
“Stay away from her…”
I simply said to him… we were out at the field… If this talk would lead to a fist fight… well, I am definite that I won’t be the one losing in it… Tssssk… this is all because of that insensitive stupid girl…
“I will never do that… no matter how many times you ask me Jiyong….”
He said calmly… the guts of this b@stard...! Is he really testing me…?!
I gritted my teeth… my fist started to clench… while he on the other side just looked at me calmly…. F*ck him…!
“I would not let you steal her away from me…. Just like what you did in the past…”
I told him again… and there I saw how his expression changed.
“You know I didn’t steal Sulli away from you… she played on both of us Jiyong… I would never-..”
“Stop it..!”
I cut him… until now he’s still pushing that reason…!
“But you brought it up first…”
I heard him hissed under his breath… I launched towards him and grabbed his collar… he’s really pissing me off…!
“I’m not playing here…”
He then grabbed my hand and shook it off from his collar.
“Neither am I… you’re still hot tempered Jiyong… maybe that’s why Sulli left you… and to think that Dara’s been patient with the way you’re acting… sooner or later she too would be fed up with your tantrums and leave you too...”
His words were worse than punches… what is he talking about…? Sulli didn’t leave me… he stole her away from me…! And Dara… she’s always been pissed with my mood… and he doesn’t have to rub it on my face because Dara always leaves me… and my f*cking self would always follow her around… I guess blackmailing her doesn’t work… should I just cuff her hand with mine…?
I was lost in my thoughts… Jaejoong then took my silence to continue with his lies.
“I never stole Sulli… she used you to get to me… I never knew she liked me not until you two became a couple… she thought I would be jealous if she dates you… but Jiyong I already has someone that I love that time… but still Sulli kept on bugging whenever you’re not insight… I knew you love her so much… So I never told you about her plans… that was the biggest mistake I made… If only I told you in the first place… maybe our friendship wouldn’t be put to waste… Jiyong-ah… I never betrayed you…”
I was still speechless… I know he already told me about these things… but back then… my mind was all in a mess… hearing these things after years brought back the pain that Sulli brought me…
I loved her so much… gave her everything… she was the only one in my eyes…. Treated her as a princess but then I thought all the love that she gave back to me were all true… those were all just lies after all… those were all just pretending… used me to get to my best friend….
I thought I could finally have someone to call mine… but still my best friend beat me to it… from academics… to curricular activities we would always be partners and even battling each other to get on top… he would always beat me but still at the end of the day we would hang out… laugh at each others mistakes… so called best friends…
I never thought that until to the first girl I loved… battling to gain her heart still took place… f*cking life…! F*cking heart to fall for her charms… for her innocence… I never thought she would be like those sluts… used me for her own benefit.
The moment I saw her naked on top of my ‘best friend’… That was the time my heart started to get numb… I felt myself being swallowed by the ground I am standing at that point… leaving nothing but my lifeless flesh…
I knew he never knew what happened… that b!tch drugged him… but I stayed blind… deaf from both of their explanations… thinking if he was not there in the first place… if he was not my friend… everything wouldn’t turn that way… that maybe I would only be the one in Sulli’s eyes… her heart would only beat my name…
But f*ck…! Everything happened so fast… I felt insecure for the first time… locking my feeling and keeping myself away from people that would remind me of the past…
I was too serious…. That was my biggest mistake… too serious to think that I’ll be forever cherished by the girl I gave my heart to… never thought it was just all part of her wicked game… that ‘L’ word f*cked up my life…
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I was brought back to my consciousness when I felt the b@stard’s hand over my shoulder…
“Jiyong… please let’s forget about the past… I came back not to cause another problem… but to see her again…”
He said… now wait… who told him to tell me to move on…? I’ve already moved on… not until he showed up again… I’ve already set out my game not until he stepped on the scene and ruined it…
“That’s why I’m telling you to stay away from Dara… if you want me to forget all those things… then stay away from us…”
I told him… he then pulled his hand back and bowed his head… now what’s his problem…?
“I can’t…. please just not her…”
His voice trailed off… my brows started to connect…. Is he serious about Dara…?
“Why…?”
I heard myself asking… I can’t help but to feel uneasy by the way he’s acting… my first time seeing him in this state…
“Remember the girl I was telling you about back then…? The girl that I saw at that party…. I never saw her after that… I tried to look for her but I can’t find her anywhere…”
And just then, I felt my heart started to beat fast… I remember it… No she can’t be… there’s no way she could be at that place… can she…? No…. please…
“I just knew that their business went bankrupt… they changed houses… that’s why I didn’t see her quickly… and just recently I finally found her in this school… I never thought that you too would also be here… especially being involved with her… It was Dara all along Jiyong…”
And that’s it… once again… I felt myself being swallowed by the ground… I felt my insides crushed into tiny bits… it hurts damnit…! Why is this being so f*ckingly painful…?!!
“Jiyong… do you…. do you love Dara…?”
That brought me back… my eyes widen and stared at him straight in his eyes… I’ve heard the ‘L’ word again…. And once again together with her name….
He looked at me with pain in his eyes… waiting for my answer… but sh!t…! I can’t speak…! Nor I don’t know what to tell him…! I’m sure to my freaking self that I…. maybe…. Probably… don’t love her…???
Damnit…! Since when did I have this doubt to myself…?!!
“Jiyong… do you love her…?”
I heard him asked me again… if by any chance… I tell him that I do… is he going to stay away from her…? Even with my uncertainty… I will do anything for him to stay away… should I tell him that…? But my voice won’t even come out….
Jiyong just say yes… just one simple word to continue your game… but still, in the end… I failed myself.
“I love her….”
I thought those words came from me… but instead my ears heard it from the guy in front of me… I felt my heart stopped for a second… I thought my brain would also stop its function… how could he say those words so casually…? While here I am… battling to myself to just say one freaking simple word…!
“I love her Jiyong since the first time I saw her… and maybe will always love her till I could win her heart… I would never back out till she would accept me… until she would be the one to stop me… if you don’t love her… then thanks… for I don’t want to hurt someone in the process… especially my best friend… please just don’t play with her… that’s all what I am asking for...”
I still stayed stiff… where’s the Jiyong I know…? Where are those words that could kill a battalion of fanboys…? I guess hearing it from him… his confession to Dara killed every part of my pride… but why…? She’s just a girl… why would someone like her deserve this kind of attention from both Jaejoong and I…?
I sighed… slowly opened my mouth… readying itself to finally let out my once sleeping voice.
“What if I do…? What if… I love Dara…?”
I heard myself saying… I saw him taken aback… stiffened for a bit… Just what the hell was that…?! F*cking mouth to speak those words…!
After a period of silence… I saw his lips curved in a smile.
“But she still hasn’t told you she loves you back right…?”
What the…! He got me there…!
He then held his hand towards me… I looked down on it and then back to him…
“May the best man win…”
He said… and finally my brilliant mind worked its wonder… remembering how I announced to everyone that she’s mine… hearing it from her would may take time but as long as in the eyes of others she belongs to me… there won’t be any problem.
I smirked… leaving his hand hanging on the air.
“Oh… I already won…”
With that I turned my back to him and about to walk away when he suddenly spoke again.
“Really…? But how come she was all alone last night that I have to stay with her almost that entire night…?”
My eyes widen… she was alone with him last night…?!! F*ck…! Is he telling the truth…?!! Oh… I know… he’s just trying to piss me off… there’s no way he’s going to beat me off with that nonsense statement…
I looked back… still wearing my trademark smirk…
“Ah… I think one night letting her be alone wouldn’t hurt… since we’re always together almost every night… and by the way… thanks for accompanying her… I’ll take it from here… I won’t let her be alone tonight…. And would even let her scream my name as we keep ourselves busy tonight…”
I turned my back and didn’t wait for another attack from him… Huh…! Just what I said earlier… I already won this battle…
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